God.

I accepted my piano teacher's proposition to take my interpretation exams on May 25.
Why did I do that ? Just how crazy am I ? I never will make it. Ever.

That's what I was saying yesterday.

This stupid idea that if I want to, I can be ready in two months. But I can't ! I can't !
This stupid idea that I will start practicing more often and that things'll work out. They won't ! They won't !

I do such stupid things sometimes.