Wednesday, April 24, 2002

Isn't it weird how some people tell you you are awesome and different and everything is more fun when you're there, and how some people think you're nearly the most beautiful being that ever was, and yet...
Yet some people hate you deeply because you are who you are, and some people just don't see anything that good in you.

Isn't it weird as well how you always end up with the same kind of people ?
I don't know. Maybe everyone is even more the same than I thought they were.
This semester I met this teacher who is so much like a teacher I had in high school. They look the same, they talk the same, they act the same... And I knew that this teacher would like me if I acted like I did with my high school teacher. I know that if I do a certain thing, he'll laugh, for example.
Maybe there is a pattern in people. Once you find and get to know one pattern, you know exactly how to behave with those who follow that pattern.
How hurtful when you wish you could stand out.

Each person taken separately does follow a pattern. Sometimes it's harder to get, but there's always a pattern.
I guess there are some patterns some people will never get.
I know some patterns I have a hard time getting, and then it takes me a while to be at ease with the person. Question is : I am sensitive and I "sense" things from people. That's how I "feel" patterns in one's personnality. But does it mean I'm lucky because some people will never get and/or see them, or does it mean I'm less good because some people because I stop to make sense out of the patterns I see when others don't necessarily need to do so ?

I shouldn't think. Sometimes I go too far. :)

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